Jeez Louise.

I can not fucking WAIT go on vacation.  8 more days and I'm OUT this hot ass, no A/C in my car, work be boring as hell, ain't nothing jumping off worth stayin, ass place.  I just don't understand...this time last year I had 3 really close male friends.  Those relationships all died in different painful ways, but I was blamed in each one, yet these have been long standing friendships in which I did give A LOT of myself, my time, my love.  And now, looking back, what the hell was the point?  As soon as you show signs of putting yourself first, bringing up the reality of things, of not being beat, all of the sudden you are uncaring.  GTFOOH!  NEXT yo.  I can't, I just can't.  So then the romance department.  Psh.  5 months and counting and I just don't even care right now.  And no hell no, even though Lenny keeps trying, no repeats of the beginning of this year, thank you!  Coming back from vacation I'm going to need to make some things happen, get the ball rolling on the rest of my life.  As my headliner says "Too many things I haven't done yet, too many sunsets, I haven't seen,"  I MEAN IT!  I'm finally dying to go back to school!  Even if it's just a class or two to start.  So hopefully I will have a LEGENDARY time on this cruise and come back ready to go!  But yea, this first half of '08, not so bad, but not as GREAT as I had predicted.  The second half though, the possibilities are endless!