My older cousin always replies to my "how are you" question with "fair to middling." I've been better than that since this summer and am carrying my contentment into the fall and new year. I know I have a lot of untapped potential; career potential, physical potential, life potential. I have to address all of these facets in order to claim authority over my happiness. Being in school has really helped renew my self-esteem and has given me motivation that I want to extend into an ailing arena, my health. I have always struggled with my horrendous eating habits and lack of discipline and self-control. When I was at my heaviest, it was less over-eating than the effects of medication, but still the lowest point in my exterior journey. So now that I am my average weight, I really want to push past this fair to middling body and expose my true potential! I believe I can do it, I just have to find way to reconfigure my lifestyle so that I can eat better and stay active without feeling like I'm missing out on indulgences. It's never been easy to rationalize feeling deprived or miserable chasing someone else's standard of beauty. What I'm realizing is that I want to be the leading lady in my own life, a concept I embraced from the movie "The Holiday." So I've jumped the gun and decided to recommit myself to my fitness and emotional development, (weight loss and blogging) and these are my two pre-year resolutions! 2011 get ready!
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