Stressing over myself actually.

This isn't a good time to have Benito back in my life.  I'm at this crazy crossroad and there is so much I want to do.  My motivation is like on the back-burner but my urgency is at the forefront.  I have to be more.  I have to.  I have to get it together in these next couple of years, so I can start a family and get on to what life is about for me.  And I'm back to catering to this guy?  Who has stayed in the same place for years?  Naw yo, not a good look.  So I need to ease out of this and get back to me and do it ASAP and not be apologetic.  Sitting up 2 in the AM stressing because I'm still weak in this area.  Stressing cause I'm not strong about my future.  This is a mess.  Imma get it together.