Let the sunshine in...

We haven't seen my dog Princess since Thursday.  She is the first pet I ever had.  I don't think she ran away as much as she strayed too far from home and got lost.  I feel so helpless.  I want to make fliers, I want to go looking for her for hours, I want my dog back.  The house feels so empty now.  She is definitely a family member, like an annoying sibling, that you love anyway.  I've had her since August.  I hope and pray that somehow we can find her and bring her home.  My heart is really heavy right now because Thursday night she came down the street from having strayed away and my friend let her in the gate and she came up to the porch but I didn't let her in cause I figured my mom or whoever would get her and take her in the back.  I think it's my fault she's gone.  I feel horrible.  So I've been fucked up about that all weekend, but I've been spending time with my little brother Dontes, and listening to him vent about his drama, and it's made it easier to cope.  Today was beautiful, it was 77 degrees most of the afternoon.  I went to the gym and then hit the $3 car wash and came home to shower.  It took me a while to do my hair and get cute for the weather, and all I had planned for my day off was to drive around with "my beat down low, and my top laid back."  

Thankfully Don called me wanting to hang out so I scooped him and we drove around for a while making people mad at us, having a good ol' time.  We headed back to my house cause my mom cooked and while me and Don chilled on the porch, he told me that he would have tried to kick it to me.  That was very endearing but when we met in 05', I did have a crush on him but when I adopted him as my little brother I never thought of him in that way again.  Also I'm 4 years older than him and I take being "brother and sister" seriously, I love the people I adopt into my life as much as any natural relative, and sometimes more, because I chose to share my life with them.